A Letter To My Eating Disorder

To ED my enemy, As I write this I am filled with a concoction of contradicting emotions; I am angry ED, angry that you put me through hell and let me believe it was going to make me happy. I’m filled with regret at the years I lost counting calories, grams of fat, and steps… Continue reading A Letter To My Eating Disorder

My Eating Disorder caused me to GAIN  18kg and nearly killed me… -The Reality of Normal Weight Eating Disorder Sufferers-

My Eating Disorder Caused Me to GAIN 18kg and Nearly Killed Me… With #edaw in full swing, I’m sure your screens have been bombarded with posts that aim to raise awareness as to the deadly consequences of illnesses such as Anorexia Nervosa.  For the most part these status’ and blog posts are filled to the… Continue reading My Eating Disorder caused me to GAIN  18kg and nearly killed me… -The Reality of Normal Weight Eating Disorder Sufferers-

Today I Realised…

I haven’t been overly present on here recently, I could say sorry but the truth is that I’m not. I am completely undeniably, unapologetic and I’m rather glad. You see, for me there is nothing more petrifying than the thought of looking forward; the future is vast, behind each corner lies unpredictability and that is… Continue reading Today I Realised…

Curing Control and Prescribing Power…

Control. It’s a word I’ve heard a million times and I must admit, control is something I crave. From a  young age I had my life mapped out, I was never the sort of kid who wanted to be a princess or a superhero when I “grew up”, instead I was the sort of kid… Continue reading Curing Control and Prescribing Power…

What is “Recovery” from an ED and What does it REALLY mean?

Hello, Hello! Sorry for my lack of blog posts but I’ve been a rather busy bee as of recent times! Christmas was , as always, crazy but really rather brilliant; two nights leave from the unit allowed me to enjoy cuddles with my mama under the light of the Christmas tree and a fabulous family… Continue reading What is “Recovery” from an ED and What does it REALLY mean?

Colour Me Depressed-

“Colour me depressed”, odd title, right? Don’t worry I will explain, but you may have to bare with me a bit… I’ve never liked painting, in fact that’s an understatement- I HATE it. We live in a world dictated to by rules. Rules calm me, they are logical and create a world where (for the… Continue reading Colour Me Depressed-