To ED my enemy, As I write this I am filled with a concoction of contradicting emotions; I am angry ED, angry that you put me through hell and let me believe it was going to make me happy. I’m filled with regret at the years I lost counting calories, grams of fat, and steps… Continue reading A Letter To My Eating Disorder
I haven’t been overly present on here recently, I could say sorry but the truth is that I’m not. I am completely undeniably, unapologetic and I’m rather glad. You see, for me there is nothing more petrifying than the thought of looking forward; the future is vast, behind each corner lies unpredictability and that is… Continue reading Today I Realised…
Control. It’s a word I’ve heard a million times and I must admit, control is something I crave. From a young age I had my life mapped out, I was never the sort of kid who wanted to be a princess or a superhero when I “grew up”, instead I was the sort of kid… Continue reading Curing Control and Prescribing Power…
Hello, Hello! Sorry for my lack of blog posts but I’ve been a rather busy bee as of recent times! Christmas was , as always, crazy but really rather brilliant; two nights leave from the unit allowed me to enjoy cuddles with my mama under the light of the Christmas tree and a fabulous family… Continue reading What is “Recovery” from an ED and What does it REALLY mean?
It’s Monday, so what better way to start off a week than a brand new topic; every Monday I’ll be doing a “Verse Of The Week” blog post! This week’s verse is Jeremiah 29:11. “For I know the plans I have for you” declares the Lord, “Plans to prosper you and not to harm you,… Continue reading Verse Of The Week
Music blasting, parties in full swing and city centres buzzing with rowdy Christmas shoppers; this is the picture of winter wonderland, right? Not necessarily, especially for someone living with an anxiety disorder. The festive tunes seem to be drowning out my own thoughts, the thought of parties suddenly makes me feel ill and busy shopping… Continue reading Festive First Aid Kit. Part 1-Anxiety and the Holidays
As I approach my 18th birthday, it is dawning on me (rather abruptly) that I will indeed be an ‘adult’ in a matter of a few short months; despite taking Peter Pan’s advice (“Never grow up”) rather literally the years seem to have rolled on regardless, and I can’t lie- I’m petrified. As a child… Continue reading Fear Of The Future